I Can See Clearly Now

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The wall in my laundry room hosts a bulletin board with inspirations, photos and a collection of angels. I don’t like knick-knacks in the other rooms of the house, but my laundry room seems to be the exception. Laundry rooms are supposed to be cluttered. Right? Notes from friends, cute plaques, and estate sale treasures find their way onto the bulletin board, or now as it is getting full, onto the window sill. Three friends gave me the cross in the picture for my birthday. It reads: “For we walk by faith, not by sight” 2 Corinthians 5-7.

I’ve been thinking a lot about sight. Paige lost a contact in the pool yesterday, now we have to head to the eye doctor this week. I have horrible vision too, barely able to make it from the sink to the bed without either my contacts or thick lenses. And then there is Merritt. She is legally blind because her brain doesn’t allow her eyes to work properly all the time.

Each year as Merritt’s annual neurology exam approaches I begin to think about all her issues. I want to be prepared to answer the doctor’s questions. Have her seizures been about the same? Yes, several a day, this is normal. How about eating? Still eating the same four meals she’s eaten for the past five years. Talk about a boring routine. But her vision, I’m just not sure. Sometimes her eyes seem to focus on something, like a toy or the Teletubbies video she watches in her room. But other times I’m sad, knowing that her brain has turned her eyes off. Her expression is blank.

If I want to adhere to the scripture above, then I need to put all of Merritt’s issues in the “walk by faith” category. I don’t know everything that is wrong with her…I just can’t see it. Sometime she’ll cry out and I have absolutely no idea why. A muscle cramp? A headache? Gas? No clue. She is like a three month old, except she has better hair and two cavities. I want to see all, know all, and fix all. But my trips to the optometrist only fix so much. I don’t get bionic vision. (I am so dating myself by using the term “bionic” – yeah I want to be the Six Million Dollar Mom)

So I’m trying to walk by faith and remember that God holds the super x-ray glasses. Thankfully, He did give me the super power to love. I’m using that one on Merritt and it helps me walk without sight. But if I did get a new super power I’d want to fly…that would be cool…better than the Bionic Man could do.

If you could choose a super power what would it be?